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The former X Factor judge and ex-Pussycat Doll opens up about her struggles with eating and her body, learning to love herself, overcoming shyness and her ‘crazy romantic’ relationship with Lewis Hamilton…
“I had such a great life on the outside, but I was miserable on the inside,” said Nicole, 36, in an interview with Cosmopolitan magazine.
“[Opening up about bulimia] was hard for me to speak about. It still is hard, and thinking about it I try not to well up. It is such a horrible paralysing disease and it was such a dark time for me.
“That’s why I can empathise so much with people who have demons and voices in their heads, who aren’t nice to themselves.
Bulimia is an eating disorder in which the sufferer starves themselves or try to control their weight by restricting their food intake and then bingeing on food. This may be followed by purging, either through being sick or with laxatives.
“I remember my manager finding me passed out on the floor in Malta or in the south of France. I thought, ‘I’m going to lose everything I love if I don’t love myself,’.
The star can now reflect on her experiences and wants to reassure others that they can get through it.
“It robs you of living your life. But you can recover and you can get rid of it forever. I did it and that’s why it’s so important for me to share my story.
“I felt so alone but I made myself so alone. You hide it from the world, you isolate yourself. But you can beat it – do not give up because you’re so special and you’re meant for such great things.”
“People know they could have a pint with me, they know I work hard but, for me, all my smiles and confidence are a triumph because it came from a broken place,” she added.
Opening up about her relationship with Lewis Hamilton she admits it’s “crazy romantic” but admits she finds the distance tough.
“Relationships are hard and having to hold a long-distance relationship is even harder,” she said.
“It’s kudos to us for growing and trying – there’s so much love there. It’s just the distance, it’s not natural for anyone. But I’m good and I’m happy.”
But when asked if she would cut back on her work to spend more time with him the singer was adamant she wouldn’t. “No, absolutely not. This is my passion, I have so much more to give, and with him – whether we’re on or off – I wholeheartedly support him in everything he does,” she said.
“It’s good we have that love and respect for each other.”